Open My Eyes

Teach me to see

I never dreamed would come a day

When I felt isolated from what I knew

What my daddy told me as a little girl

What I observed in silent halls

Through a meditative and holy moment

But along came struggle

Pain without hope of repair

The chambers of my heart rent from one another

Broken, bleeding and banished

And then the ways of the world

The loose lips sinking ships

And the wreckage washing up on the shore

And I drifted away, rough, ragged driftwood

The waves softened my edges and I began to hear Hosea

Come back to me with all your heart

Don't let fear keep us apart

Then I met him, he seemed like you

Humble, caring, loving and holy

He spoke Your name

And I loved him

I love him

I believe he loves You

But his ways are not my ways

His beliefs not the truth written on my heart

And his people hate my people

And I'm lost

How can I love you both

And show that love 

And live that love

And though my heart is breaking

Day in and day out

I will not feel alone

Instead, I give it all to You

I will not be stubborn with You

I will go, if you lead me

I will not harden my heart

All I ask of him is harden not his

To listen to You and go where you lead

If You lead us apart, it will be a torment

Like one heart ripped in two

But if You tell it to beat, it will beat

If You tell it to live, it will live

If You lead us together, give us the strength

To choose what is right

To do Your will, not our upbringing

To truly and finally become one

We're still halfway through the marriage moment

Though we've said our vows

What remains is for our hearts to be sealed

By Your truth and hand

I have not prayed in so long

I have felt like an abandoned daughter

Hard as I tried, I couldn't find You there

I did find good people and honest

I did find good will and good intentions

But You were hidden from me there

Now I pray and beg to feel You again

I give all over to You and pray for your guidance

For your vocation

For your hand in my life

Like a little girl who skinned her knee

I need my Father to heal me and set things right

And I pray that you preserve my covenant

It was made in love and honesty

The love that rejects self

Only, in rejecting self, for a moment

I rejected the home we have known together

All the days of my life

Help me to find a way to love him and You

I pray in Jesus' name, Amen

Open my Eyes Lord,

Teach me to see...